December in the blogosphere

by admin on December 20, 2011 at 9:49 pm

It’s December so it’s nearly the end of the year, which means the ‘blogosphere’ goes into madness about how it’s time to reflect and change and improve and stop procrastinating and just ‘do’ things. Well I’m pretty sure I’ve done that before in various guises, mmm.. every year since I was 15 and has it ever made a difference?

In 2009 I said: “My ‘New Years Resolution’ is going to be to spend as much time as possible doing the things I really want to do.” Out of context it sounds fucking stupid, but I know what I meant, it’s more of a life motto not to waste my time doing pointless activities like making the bed and waiting for hot drinks to cool down before they are usable. It seems a hell of a long time since I wrote that though. I haven’t written an awful lot this year, my mind has been on other things, like moving cities and jobs.

So blah blah, next year will be better, I’ll ‘just do things’ because priorities are bad thing (!?), I’ll waste less time so I can do more of my favourite things, and also be ready to jump at all the new opportunities that come along.

Nah. I’ll probably get up around 7am every day, go to work, each lunch from a nearby deli at my desk, talk to a limited group of peers about self reinforcing ideas, wait until my boss leaves before thinking about going to the gym, decide against it, curse everyone using a phone on the bus, get home and waste my evening on I don’t even fucking know what. Then I’ll spend the whole weekend recovering from a hangover, making up for the fact that I didn’t eat a hot meal all week, cleaning the mess I left each night because “I don’t have time to sort it now”, and trying to remember what the actual point of any of the last 7 days were.

I sound bitter and twisted, and after a few months in the capital I have absolutely no right to be whatsoever! Actually I’m not- that was my anti-resolution, and I think that maybe this year focusing on things I don’t want to do may be better than writing “stop thinking, start doing” on tiny scraps of paper and sending them to yourself. (http://tinyurl.com/cyvalo5)